“Make the first move, tell people how you feel, stop being so scared of rejection, stop feeling so engulfed with thoughts that aren’t even yours, and stop wasting your fucking time.”—What I needed to hear (via sereinsky)
“I think that — that anyone, the painter, the musician, the writer works in a — a kind of an insane fury. He’s demon-driven. He can get up feeling rotten, with a hangover, or with actual pain, and if he gets to work, the first thing he knows, he don’t remember that pain, that hangover — he’s too busy.”—William Faulkner (via 148-3tothe3tothe6tothe9)
Probably the worst types of people are the ones that shut you down to make themselves look cooler than you, for example if you get excited and squeal and they’re like “woah what was that..” or if you talk loudly because you’re passionate about something and they say “relax dude wow” and then give a look… Like fuck off stop trying to act so cool and collected. You don’t seem more mature you just seem fucking boring and monotonously placid.
“Sometimes this really seems to shock people. They appear genuinely upset when I say ‘this conversation is over’ or ‘I’m actually not interested in debating this with you.’ There’s an expectation that if you care about social justice and political issues, you’re always ‘on.’ You’re always ready to debate, you’re always ready to have theoretical discussions about your own lived experiences and the issues you care about, you’re always ready to defend yourself. That’s manifestly ridiculous and unjust, an expectation that’s simply not reasonable.”—Sometimes, I Just Don’t Have Time for Individual Fights | this ain’t livin’ (via albinwonderland)
natasha’s humor is so great though because it’s almost close to but also completely different from what you’re used to seeing from other (male) antihero characters - you know, the whole Charming Asshole, snarky-in-the-face-of-danger, devil-may-care vibe (see: tony stark, peter quill in the mcu)
natasha always has a gravity to her no matter how flippant or sarcastic she’s being. her humor is dry and constantly self-aware, it’s there because she’s seen so much and done so much that what else can she do but crack a smile? and the best, the best thing about natasha’s humor is that the jokes are mostly for herself. this is a woman who is known to be cold and distant with others, but when she climbs onto a boat full of unknown danger in the dead of night, she thinks to herself “lost in a sea of uncertainty…pun intended.” she doesn’t care if nobody thinks it’s funny but her because she’s her own audience (which can have a sad implication regarding how much time she’s spent alone in her life). in the charming asshole trope, the humor or dickishness usually at least partially turns out to be a performance, one that masks some sort of vulnerability. with natasha, it’s the opposite. the humor is where she’s vulnerable, where she’s honest. if natasha tells you a joke, it means she’s a. probably about to kick your ass and thus doesn’t give a shit or b. that she trusts you. (also, when natasha makes fun of steve in catws it never crosses a line into actual meanness - she’s not insensitive, just irreverent).
basically: natasha’s humor is for herself. she hasn’t exactly had a funny or entertaining life, so she’s got to generate that or i think she’d break down. and the world is pretty funny, once you’ve seen enough of it. brutal, complicated, and unfair - but pretty fucking funny, too. knowing natasha, whatever there is of a real her, means being in on the joke.
so I was reading Vince Gilligan’s original pilot script and it’s awesome but there are a few key differences from the final version. so you’ll be reading along and it’ll feel like the same episode…until something happens like: